The confession
Quite recently I have caught myself spun into an online shopping frenzy. To fill you in on the history, I have started online shopping for clothing a few years ago. I wasn't satisfy with the clothes that the shops were offering, they were (and still are) expensive, cheaply made, and not my style, so I started looking at online stores. I would only make one or two small and cheap online orders every year, fearing that the items won't turn out the way I expected them to. I would look at things on the website wanting many of them but after placing the order I would stop thinking about them immediately. Before, one small online purchase could sustain me for almost a whole year.Since early this year I have started to put in orders more frequently, and lately I have found myself placing one order every month. Each time, I would tell myself that this will be the last purchase that I am going to make. Then all things broke loose, I started to put in two orders in June. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that buying things is wrong or online shopping is bad for you. By all means, if you want to or feel the need to buy, you have the right to always buy whenever you like. But the whole shopping thing just contradicts and goes against my personal beliefs. Think to yourself, how many people live in poverty. Look at the kids in Africa, India and South America. I recently watched a documentary about poverty (watch the excerpt below). It featured a little Indian boy who can't attend school because he has to work in the quarry with his family for the rest of their lives to pay off a debt. How fortunate am I, I certainly do not need to throw my money away like this. I have a full closet of clothes and shoes, and I definitely don't need more.
I now find myself buying just to satisfy a sudden urge or to 'deal with being depressed'. I have even started to loose that excitement while waiting for the package to arrive. All the adrenalin goes into placing the order, then when the button is clicked I no longer feel that I need those items. I have identified a few reasons why online shopping is so appealing and addictive to me. I just don't buy in person at the shops anymore.